Come on brain...make a decision already!

I don't know if it's because of the multitude of things scrambling around in my brain or that I'm truly on the verge of depression or what...but I just can't make a decision to save my life lately. For the past several days, Ken and I have been trying to decide on doing something this weekend. Something to just get out of the house and not focus on what we have gone through in the past week or so. We've been trying to decide whether to go to Myrtle Beach for the weekend, go to Raleigh for the NC State Fair, to go to Columbia, SC for the SC State Fair or maybe even something else. Of course my wonderful husband wants the decision to be up to me, so that I am happy with whatever we do...but truly, it seems like I have NO opinion as to what we do. I do know that I don't want to stay in this house, but what is it I want to do?
Just when we had thought about doing the NC State Fair, last night we saw on twitter that the guy we were hoping to see in concert at the fair cancelled due to vocal problems. It is a 3 1/2 hour trip to the fair, and we would have to get a hotel for Saturday night so we wouldn't have to drive all the way home late at night, which means we would also need to have our pet sitter come in and care for the dogs as well.
The idea of going to the beach really didn't appeal to me because it is "off season" so nothing is really open or going on down that way. There are some good shows and theaters down there, but...they aren't cheap shows either (roughly $50/person). And, I've been to Myrtle Beach a few times...I don't want to just walk through shops and sit in a hotel room.
So, we finally made the decision that the SC State Fair is what we will be doing this weekend. It is close enough where we can do it in a day trip, so no hotel and not pet sitter (cost savings) and it is something that the two of us have not done together...a state fair.
Ken is determined that he is going to be winning me some "stuffed animals"...how cute, but we will see how good he really is at these games. It sounds funny, but the one thing I'm looking forward to is the awesome fair food! Who truly doesn't love a funnel cake, or cotton candy, or corn dogs or any of the other things you can't get on a normal day? The funny thing about that is I have been telling myself since my realization that I was no longer pregnant, that I was going to be busting my butt at the gym and dieting to get more in shape (thanks to the horrible fertility medications) and be prepared for our cruise. I'm talking about dieting and losing weight, and yet I'm getting excited about having fair food.

Anyway, I'm praying that I will find the motivation to get into the gym tonight and hopefully stay focused. Depression is a horrible thing, and I'm so over having it hang over my head. Of course, it's dreary and rainy here today...that doesn't help matters at all.